I haven’t written. I’ve been licking my wounds in an attempt to recover from what I thought was my ticket out of this job, a new opportunity, the answer to my prayers. . . the interview went well, I got the job offer, I was excited. And then the salary. Are you kidding me? It was lateral, at best. What’s my incentive to move? I countered, they came back with an additional $1k tacked on. I was soooooooo upset. I cried and cried. I toyed with the idea of accepting, just so I could move on to something else, but that night I woke up twice in a panic, sitting bolt upright in bed, thinking What have I done? So when I really got up in the morning, I knew no one was forcing me to take this position, that as much as I want out and want to move on, I don’t have to take whatever presents itself. I can choose.
It was with much disappointment that I declined the offer, but not without beating myself up about it first. Am I not “worth” a decent salary? Did I somehow come off as a loser in my interview? What did I do to rate such an offer? I keep telling myself it’s not me, it’s this economy. Employers know a lot of people are without jobs and will take whatever they can get to get by. Heck, I’m in that situation myself. I’m grateful to have a job, but this isn’t what I want to be doing a year from now. Knowing that, employers can offer lower salaries and see who bites. That’s what I think anyway. And someone will take that position and be glad to have it. I’m happy for that person. Now if I could just get my own little ray of sunshine in the job search. 🙂
You know the interview I mentioned here? It turned out to be the strangest interview I’ve been on, by far. It’s a small company and the lady whose 3rd in charge is looking for her replacement as she moves on to different areas of responsibility in the company. This is who interviewed me. Several times she said, “Tell me everything you know about _____.” I started by stating the highpoints, sort of putting things in a nutshell but not knowing what she was looking for, I asked her what aspect of this topic she was interested in, because frankly there are volumes written about these topics and the regulations change, etc. She listened to me for a few minutes, but then she told me how she was around “in the beginning” so she knew these things inside and out. Great. But then she proceeded to question me this way on multiple topics. “Tell me everything you know about ____.” She also threw in some questions asking about what I’d done before. I seriously wanted to ask the woman if she’d read my resume. It clearly states what I’ve done and haven’t done. But like I said, this was the strangest interview I’ve ever been on.
She grilled me like this for an hour and fifteen minutes, and after I left and had time to mull things over, I started thinking this probably wasn’t a position I would want anyway. I think the interview said a lot about her personality and her very high opinion of herself. Granted, she’s probably very good at what she does and if I could tolerate the self-importance I could probably learn a lot from her, but I don’t think it would be an environment I would be happy in. Oh well, easy come, easy go.
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