. . . than to say I have laundry under control. Seriously. Just when I think I’ve conquered it – BOOM!! – the laundry pile is suddenly a mountain that threatens to come crashing down on top of me if I don’t start up the washer pronto. I know it’s never-ending, so why the heck I said it’s under control is beyond me. I know better!! 🙂
I think I’ll start of new category of “I should know better …”s. I’ve got a bunch of them! I’m a smart gal, at least in some areas, but sometimes I do make the same mistakes a couple of times. The laundry comment is minor, yes, but let’s see what else I can come up with. What about you? Anyone want to share their own “I should know better” moments? Names can be change to protect the humiliated. 🙂
Since I’ve been in corporate America for nearly a year and a half, after being a stay-at-home mom, then going to grad school, I’ve come to appreciate the weekend in an entirely different way. I savor my weekends. Of coure, there’s the anticipation that builds as the weekdays pass. Thursday is especially delightful in knowing the next day will be Friday, and then . . . glorious weekend. Fridays can be crazy busy at work, but I don’t let things get to me because I know in a few hours I’ll have two days entirely for my son and me.
And here it is Friday. Lovely. My son’s in bed. I have a glass of wine, which I’m savoring also. Breathe in the bouquet followed by small sips of utter enjoyment. One glass. Not enough to get tanked, but just enough to enjoy. Fabulous.
I’ve been energized this week. I feel like I’ve accomplished a great deal at work. Tonight I started my weekend housecleaning that I usually start on Saturday morning. I started laundry and already have that under control. The kitchen’s in pretty good shape. I’m feeling good about things. I’m sure the nice weather we’ve had these past couple of days has helped. The battle for spring is on. Right now the warmer temps are in the lead, but winter’s going to do another smack down early in the week. Back to frigid reality. At least for a few days. So for now, I’ll savor this warmer weather the way I savor my weekends and my wine. One moment at a time. Hope your weekend is enjoyable and you can spend some time with people you love. Cheers!
Has it really been over two months since my last post??? I know it’s corny, but it’s oh so true: time flies. Next week it’ll be February. Good Lord!
I guess I got swept up in the holidays and end of year work busy-ness. (More like work craziness, but that’s another post!) Even though the holidays can be hectic, I’m finding that I love Christmas more and more. That may seem like a strange thing to say, but when I look back at how stressful the holidays were when I was married, I’ve come a long way. It used to be all about making sure we made the rounds, my husband was cranky because he didn’t like us spending money, he didn’t know what he wanted to buy people, and ideas I would suggest would often get shot down. Even my own wish list would get shot down, and I’m not talking extravagant items either. Wow. I don’t miss those days.
Now I’m still doing the holiday shuffle, making sure we visit who we need to, but for whatever reason I find more joy in the season. I love the festivities. Love to decorate. Love to shop. Not that I’m a marathon shopper, at all. If I pick up a gift or two at a time, I’m doing good. I guess maybe I’ve learned to pace myself. I know what my patience level is and I work with it. And for the first time, in probably my whole adult life, I was sad to take down the Christmas tree.
I changed the blog theme to something more holiday-ish. It’s not just retailers getting in the mood! One of our local radio stations starts playing Christmas music promptly each November 1st. Some people grumble and ask, Do they really have enough music to play all day, let alone for two months? The answer is yes, they do. I enjoy listening to it, and granted, there are songs I don’t particularly like, so I do the same thing I do the other 10 months of the year: I change the station. I think it’s nice when we have Christmas music to add to the mix.
Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m not always gung-ho and on top of the holiday madness. I didn’t send out Christmas cards last year. I can’t remember if I did the year before that or not. I’m rather spotty when it comes to Christmas cards, some years I do, some I don’t. I love writing letters, so you’d think I’d be a natural. I enjoy sending photo Christmas cards, though, and sometimes it’s not easy to find someone to take a snap of my son and me.
You’d think, as much as I love writing, that I’d get into the Christmas letter, catching everyone up on our lives in a month by month recap, but I haven’t embraced that tradition yet. Maybe one of these days. This year, I’m planning to send cards. I’m even offering to help my mom send photo Christmas cards of her and dad if she’d like. She hasn’t done that before. I took a few photos of them recently that would work well, so I’m going to send those to her and see what she thinks. She gets to pick the photo, and I’ll order the cards and send them to her.
Now for Christmas shopping . . .
When you think of pest, you probably think of a student, but in our case, I think it’s my son’s teacher. He’s been complaining that she’s mean. A few students have even cried, and these aren’t kindergarteners, they’re 5th graders — Kiddos who are used to the school routine. Except when your teacher is an intense 25+ year veteran teacher. Normally I’d be grateful for an experienced teacher, but in this case, I don’t think experience weighs out. I haven’t figured out if it’s just her personality, that she’s just abrasive, or if she’s burned out, or if it’s both of those and maybe more.
All I know is my normally happy-go-lucky little man has been stressed and anxious, and even crying at the thought of going back to school each day. I called a meeting with the teacher and the principal, and I left having mixed emotions. She’s definitely intense, and wanted to steer the focus of the meeting to what she wanted to talk about. Definitely an overbearing personality. We agreed to weekly phone calls. Last night was the first of those. I can’t say I feel any better about the whole situation.
And she threw in a verbal slap in the face, saying she had heard that my son wanted to live with his dad. I know for a fact this isn’t true, but what I don’t know is if she said that strictly as a jab, or as retribution for calling her to the principal’s office, or if she was digging for information. Doesn’t really matter. What I do know, is that as a mother and grandmother (as she told me she was) she knows full well the power behind her statement. Shame on her. I see thru her comment, but how many other parents has she wounded in her 25+ years of teaching. Multiply that times ten and we might have a low-ball estimate of the number of students she’s traumatized over the years.
How is it that this woman still teaches? I’ve been trying for a year and half to get a teaching job and haven’t had any luck, but here’s this hateful woman interacting with innocent children on a daily basis. It boggles my mind!
I’ve typed up an email to the principal outlining all of my concerns and requesting that my son be transferred out of her class. I haven’t sent it yet, but I did send it to my ex-husband who was also in the meeting. I want to see what he thinks about it, and I want to let it sit for a day. I’ll look at it again tomorrow with fresh eyes and see if anything needs to be added or taken out.
It’s a stressful situation. It’s so hard to see your child in misery. So hard to drop him off at school each day knowing I’m sending him into such agony. I know the school has a policy of class assignments being final, but in this case I think they have to make an exception. He’s not focused on learning, and he can’t have a year of this level of stress. I may be in for a battle, but they’ve got this mother hen riled up.
I’ve always thought of Sundays as a little sad. When I was a kid, it meant whatever cousins had come to visit for the weekend had to go home; it meant the end of the weekend and the beginning of the school week; it meant the end of fun and back to the grind. As an adult, my perception of Sundays hasn’t changed.
We had a fabulous weekend with friends of ours who last year moved two hours away to a college town. They have a lovely home outside of town and there’s a creek on the backside of their property. It’s so utterly scenic, they should charge us for staying the weekend. I think if I lived there I would be utterly and totally at peace.
In fact, driving out there yesterday morning, I came to the conclusion that part of the stress I’ve been experiencing lately is due to not getting out of the city in so long. I love getting out to the pastures and farm land and corn fields. A couple of years ago when I was in NYC, I stood on the sidewalk gazing up the skyscrapers and precious few trees and wondered how far I would have to drive before I saw any farmland or a cow? I’ve told people about that experience, and I think they thought I was crazy. “I must say, I’ve never wondered about cattle when I’ve been in the Big Apple” or “With all there is to see, you couldn’t stop thinking about pastures??” Yes, I confounded my friends. I finally stopped telling people. It was an odd experience. I love NYC and plan to visit again and again; it really has nothing to do with the city itself. It’s more about me, and where my spirit is. And believe me, the revelation has surprised even me.
When I was younger, I couldn’t wait to leave the country, move to the city, get where the action was. I wasn’t going to be held back by some small-town, I was going places. So now I’ve spent more of my life living in cities than I did living in the country, but I find myself drawn to it like a touchstone. I need that time to help ground me, literally. It feels like the pull of generations.
I don’t think I could give up all the conveniences of city life, though. Maybe one of these days, but for now I’d like the best of both worlds. Sort of like my friends have. Smaller but good sized community, and living on the outskirts of that. As I listen to the sound of traffic outside my window, the wheels are turning, trying to formulate a plan of possibilities.
It hasn’t escaped me that I didn’t make it back here yesterday after getting all fired up a couple of days ago and reassuring you that the blog was back. One thing I should know, though, is that posting every day is quite a stretch. I love to write, but my blog isn’t my only writing project, so I’ve got to divide my time. Posting 2 to 3 times a week is my realistic goal, and I think it’s do-able. I can do this!!
On a side note, while I was away, I got a spike is visitors on Sept. 11. That strikes me as odd, since of course the first things I think of when I think of that date are the 9/11 attacks in NYC, DC, and PA. Were more people just out looking for things in general on that day? Maybe it’s just an odd coincidence. At any rate, welcome. I’m just getting back to my blog and haven’t quite focused things yet. Sometimes I think I’m a child with ADHD and it takes me a little longer to focus. Maybe I’m an adult with ADHD. What was I saying?
Oh yes, that I’m back, but not on a daily basis. Probably an every other day basis or a couple times a week. Don’t want to wear out my welcome. It’s Friday night, and I’m overjoyed. I have a day job that I tolerate, and I relish in my own time with my son. Total bliss. I think I’ll have a glass of wine and call it a night. Happy weekend!!