It’s 2012 and I haven’t written a blog post in gosh knows when. I still have visitors, though, so thank you! I feel terrible that I haven’t written anything, yet you’ve been loyal and checked in. You = good. Me = bad. Life’s been a roller coaster, as it can often be for all of us. My attention has been pulled in 1,367,482 other directions, but 2012 is going to be the year I tune out the unnecessary in order to focus on the “important” things. Blogging is important! I’m going to try my best to be here more often. What about you? How’s your year shaping up?
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I must have fear of commitment. I keep saying I’ll pay more attention to my blog, show it how much it means to me, spend time with it. Not obsessive amounts of time, just more time. And I do for a little while, a few days. And then I go days without checking in, much less posting. It’s not that I don’t love you little blog, I really do. It’s not you, really, it’s me. I have issues. I’m probably not good for you. I want to be there for you, I just . . . I don’t know what happens. You deserve better than me. You deserve someone who will be there when she says she will be there. Someone you can count on. It’s not that I don’t think about you, I do. I care about you, it’s not that. I dunno. If you still want to hang out, that would be great. I’ll try to do better. I know I’ve said it before, I know, I know. And I’ve said this time I mean it, but this time I really, really do. Let’s stop talking. Hold me.
It hasn’t escaped me that I didn’t make it back here yesterday after getting all fired up a couple of days ago and reassuring you that the blog was back. One thing I should know, though, is that posting every day is quite a stretch. I love to write, but my blog isn’t my only writing project, so I’ve got to divide my time. Posting 2 to 3 times a week is my realistic goal, and I think it’s do-able. I can do this!!
On a side note, while I was away, I got a spike is visitors on Sept. 11. That strikes me as odd, since of course the first things I think of when I think of that date are the 9/11 attacks in NYC, DC, and PA. Were more people just out looking for things in general on that day? Maybe it’s just an odd coincidence. At any rate, welcome. I’m just getting back to my blog and haven’t quite focused things yet. Sometimes I think I’m a child with ADHD and it takes me a little longer to focus. Maybe I’m an adult with ADHD. What was I saying?
Oh yes, that I’m back, but not on a daily basis. Probably an every other day basis or a couple times a week. Don’t want to wear out my welcome. It’s Friday night, and I’m overjoyed. I have a day job that I tolerate, and I relish in my own time with my son. Total bliss. I think I’ll have a glass of wine and call it a night. Happy weekend!!
Testing. Is this thing on? I’ve neglected my poor blog. We went on vacation, and once we got back, I got carried away by the minutia of life. I didn’t forget my blog; I just haven’t made time for it. And it shows in my everyday frustration. Writing keeps me sane, whether anyone reads it or not, and having been away, I’ve been losing out on all those feel-good endorphins I get from clicking away on my keyboard. Granted, I click away on my keyboard all day at work, but it’s just not the same.
So, I’m reprioritizing. The blog is back. Or more accurately, I’m back at the blog. I’ve got a million things I could cover. I’m still on the job hunt, but recent offers have me questioning if all this effort is worth a lateral move. It’s so frustrating. I feel like upward mobility has completely stalled out. Are other people having this experience or is it just me? I have more education than I had 10 years ago, lots more, but looking at my salary, you’d never guess that.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful to have a job that keeps a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs, food on the table, and gas in the car. But I want more. I’m not extravagant, either; I’m just looking for more comfort and security. Writing has always brought me comfort, so I’ve got to find my way back. Have to find those precious few minutes when I can do what I love. So, with the blog as a priority once again, I’ll plan on seeing you tomorrow. Hope you’ve been well!